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I’ve been so busy I haven’t had a to much time to write or comment so forgive me. Hopefully I can catch everyone up in this post.
First of all Peanut is doing much better. Thanks to all who put him in your prayers and sent me emails. It’s greatly appreciated. My son being sick put a lot of things in perspective for me. He wasn’t on his deathbed or anything but it still made me think of how life can be snatched in a minute. So fast it will make your life spin. My son is my world and if anything ever happened to him, words can’t express how devastated I would be. That’s the joy and the sadness of having a child. I mean I love him so much and he’s been such a blessing to me that my life would be empty without him. On the flipside I constantly worry about his safety and his well-being. I won’t lie… before I had him it was nice not to worry so much about everything.
I told everyone about my friend a little while back. Well I didn’t say much because I wasn’t sure what was going to happen with him. He’s in the military and I wasn’t sure how much longer he was going to be here. Sure enough he got shipped out. He’s in the Navy, stationed in Annapolis. He was supposed to be “on the water” as he called it for a month but low and behold I get a phone call yesterday morning saying he was back. I don’t think I could get used to dating someone in the military. It’s more dangerous now than ever and I couldn’t rest with knowing someone I care about was in danger like that. Plus sometimes you never know when you’re going to leave or how long you’ll be gone. And what’s with all the secrecy? You tell anyone where you’re going. I guess that’s for safety reasons but it’s annoying as hell. I’ve only been dating this guy for a few weeks, imagine being married or in a long-term relationship with someone in the military. It’s got to be very hard. I have a new found respect for all those left behind every day all over the world while there men and women go off to protect their country.
Like I said I got a call yesterday saying he got back Monday night and he would be in Delaware on Tuesday. We made tentative plans for last night. After I got off work I really didn’t feel like going out but he’s about to leave again so I went. We went to TGI Friday’s, which is my favorite restaurant, but it was so late I only ordered dessert. We were gonna go to the movies but we stayed in Fridays so long we missed the last show so we went to the casino. Now here’s where it gets interesting. I knew I wasn’t going to play to much money cause I wasn’t really in the mood to gamble. I put $5.00 in the nickel machines and played it until it was gone. Somehow he and I had gotten separated so I went to look for him cause’ I wasn’t about to play anymore. When I found him he had all these buckets of gold coins. Like 4 of them. I had never saw those coins before so when I asked he informed me that each one was worth a dollar. In the time that it took me to lose 5 bucks he had won over $600. Why can’t I have that kind of luck? It seems like every time I go to the casino, the person I go with wins big and I don’t. I was happy for him though. He wanted to give me half of it but I wouldn’t take it. Money has a way of making people crazy. In situations with a mate, I prefer to have my own and you have your own. Less stress.
This weekend Peanut & I went to Philly. We had a wonderful time with Benjamin and his parents. I love going up there. They are such cool people. Benjamin and I are at a really good place right now. It feels good to not be in so much pain and turmoil all the time. It was just easy and nice to be with him. We went to the Tacony Palmyra flea market in Jersey and I got a car seat for Peanut for $5. I love love love flea markets. Especially when I find good deals like that. The car seat was dirty as hell but we hosed it down and it looked brand new. We just watched TV and played with Peanut for the rest of the weekend.
I turned down both of the job offers I had. I’m still looking but they just didn’t quite fit. Savannah is still a very strong option, just not right now. Something else is opening up at my job so I just want to wait a little while longer to see how it plays out. If what I think is going to happen, happens then I’ll be in Philadelphia before the end of the year. That’s what I really and truly want anyway.
I have more to post but I’m gonna try to do that later I have a meeting to get to.
First of all Peanut is doing much better. Thanks to all who put him in your prayers and sent me emails. It’s greatly appreciated. My son being sick put a lot of things in perspective for me. He wasn’t on his deathbed or anything but it still made me think of how life can be snatched in a minute. So fast it will make your life spin. My son is my world and if anything ever happened to him, words can’t express how devastated I would be. That’s the joy and the sadness of having a child. I mean I love him so much and he’s been such a blessing to me that my life would be empty without him. On the flipside I constantly worry about his safety and his well-being. I won’t lie… before I had him it was nice not to worry so much about everything.
I told everyone about my friend a little while back. Well I didn’t say much because I wasn’t sure what was going to happen with him. He’s in the military and I wasn’t sure how much longer he was going to be here. Sure enough he got shipped out. He’s in the Navy, stationed in Annapolis. He was supposed to be “on the water” as he called it for a month but low and behold I get a phone call yesterday morning saying he was back. I don’t think I could get used to dating someone in the military. It’s more dangerous now than ever and I couldn’t rest with knowing someone I care about was in danger like that. Plus sometimes you never know when you’re going to leave or how long you’ll be gone. And what’s with all the secrecy? You tell anyone where you’re going. I guess that’s for safety reasons but it’s annoying as hell. I’ve only been dating this guy for a few weeks, imagine being married or in a long-term relationship with someone in the military. It’s got to be very hard. I have a new found respect for all those left behind every day all over the world while there men and women go off to protect their country.
Like I said I got a call yesterday saying he got back Monday night and he would be in Delaware on Tuesday. We made tentative plans for last night. After I got off work I really didn’t feel like going out but he’s about to leave again so I went. We went to TGI Friday’s, which is my favorite restaurant, but it was so late I only ordered dessert. We were gonna go to the movies but we stayed in Fridays so long we missed the last show so we went to the casino. Now here’s where it gets interesting. I knew I wasn’t going to play to much money cause I wasn’t really in the mood to gamble. I put $5.00 in the nickel machines and played it until it was gone. Somehow he and I had gotten separated so I went to look for him cause’ I wasn’t about to play anymore. When I found him he had all these buckets of gold coins. Like 4 of them. I had never saw those coins before so when I asked he informed me that each one was worth a dollar. In the time that it took me to lose 5 bucks he had won over $600. Why can’t I have that kind of luck? It seems like every time I go to the casino, the person I go with wins big and I don’t. I was happy for him though. He wanted to give me half of it but I wouldn’t take it. Money has a way of making people crazy. In situations with a mate, I prefer to have my own and you have your own. Less stress.
This weekend Peanut & I went to Philly. We had a wonderful time with Benjamin and his parents. I love going up there. They are such cool people. Benjamin and I are at a really good place right now. It feels good to not be in so much pain and turmoil all the time. It was just easy and nice to be with him. We went to the Tacony Palmyra flea market in Jersey and I got a car seat for Peanut for $5. I love love love flea markets. Especially when I find good deals like that. The car seat was dirty as hell but we hosed it down and it looked brand new. We just watched TV and played with Peanut for the rest of the weekend.
I turned down both of the job offers I had. I’m still looking but they just didn’t quite fit. Savannah is still a very strong option, just not right now. Something else is opening up at my job so I just want to wait a little while longer to see how it plays out. If what I think is going to happen, happens then I’ll be in Philadelphia before the end of the year. That’s what I really and truly want anyway.
I have more to post but I’m gonna try to do that later I have a meeting to get to.
posted by Meka at 10:15 AM
7 Comments:
my parents (married 27, almost 28 years) are a retired military couple. my dad is now retired, but my mom dealt with his travels for most of the 21 years he was in.
i'm about to be married to a pilot. i spend a lot of night's at home while he's working. i guess i'm my mother's daughter.
but if you're strong enough and if the love is strong enough, things have a way of working themselves out.
i wish you luck. military people are good people, but i'm a little biased ;-)
The decision for a civilian to make in regards to getting with someone in the military has been ratcheted up now that the war shows no signs in sight of slowing down. Add to that the long distance involved and it requires a certain kind of fortitude. I couldn't do it when I was in the Army.
I refused and avoided all kinds of relationships for that reason alone. I wouldn't dissuade anyone from it however. Sometimes it's the folks at home that keep the military individuals away and abroad going hard and strong for their country. Be well Meka...
Big decision...I'll keep you posted
i hope that you get to go to philly like you want! :-)
I can only imagine what it's like being with someone who's in the military. Good luck with that and with finding a new job (I'm looking as well).
BTW, I've moved. My new URL is:
http://theessenceofsunnchine.blogspot.com.
(The artist formerly known as "Chevonne") lol!
follow your heart and pray ALOT!
I WISH YOU THE BEST.
girl where have you been??? bloggers on this site are falling off the face of the earth! come back and let us know how you're doing ok? :-)
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